Captained ship

The causes i have made myself available to
The life that I am expected to live
The moments which were made to define my existence
The life decisions altered by the circumstances we find ourselves in
The course that has to be runned
This life that I have no choice but to live yet it itself is a choice
The race which needs to be finished
The life given to me to live

I am inadequate
I cannot live this life
I need help, assistance
I need to fulfill every possible part of me
I need to do what I was born to do
I need to express what was designed to be said thru me

A created being cannot know what its created for it has to go to the Creator
A design can only know its purpose for design by addressing the Designer

A house is planned by the person who lives in it who can execute I’ts functions as they see fit yet mine is too big for me to know all that needs to go where it’s a complex and highly roomed mansion of possibility and potential and I find myself absolutely unable to fill every space of what I want it to house or hold I need more than what is offered on the world market.

So off to the Creator God I run, off to Maker and Founder of the earth I go
And pray

“I need you to room every part of me I need you to fill me with what I have been designed to hold I need to be more than what I am told to be I want to be chained with the chains you allow I want to be inflicted with what you permit to come I am inadequate to fill this mansion so I give it to you I want to be a man who is absolutely filling the earth and the world of the community in me with its destined and seemly inhabitants so take my life please take it God and make me what you see fit. I would rather have not what you don’t want me to have than end up with not having what I was suppose to have I reason you are the ultimate so go on have your fill with me, I take my gamble on you Jesus. Please God take my life”

there no worry all I have to do now is just wake up and someone else will take care of this community within me …I would rather it be God than someone inadequate and totally unaware and unattuned of my inmost highest needs
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