Trouble with or without...lol...!?

I lie here in total abandon of care

I invent methods of penning the unseen

Subjected to a confinement of my space

Let the things unsaid be at the presence of Him who wants to say them

Breathing sometimes can be a task

Which I love offcourse yet it requires an effort none the less

Let all I am be in the presence of who most definate wants to use it

God here is your turn with me

I am a pencil of which God writes His story with???

God,God,? Yah… gosh I wish I had the power to save myself

Then breathing would be a breeze and not such a task

Yet get a hold of this, people who called on God were and still are martyred, beaten and the Savior which they relied upon and who has instilled Himself in me suffered most than any person alive

So calling Jesus to come to my aid?

Is that a good idea?

Yet one thing I know that if God is God…which in my belief through Jesus Christ and helped by Holy Spirit that He is, I am in stable care.

We may be as humans (are) in a no win win situation…Trouble with God and Trouble without God.

Yet,

This I know for sure my life is invested in it…God is the ultimate lover, crucified, yes! but for me. servants martyred, yes! but to get to me and give me The Message all His effort and His dealings with earth are directed for my embetterment .

I may not know much about the disposition of the earth and not have the answers for why or when

Yet when I look up and mention in calling…,God through Jesus by the Helper Enabler Holy Spirit I know complete love is on my backup.

So God start writing I give permission Jesus to U start scribbling yet one request… Whatever you write it must be scinttilatting , eccentric , adventurous , unexpected colourful, flamboyant without notice deadlines and of absolute thrill and creative exploits for without the unseen and suprising in my life Lord I would cease to be and absolutely everything You made me and put me on earth for.