I'll try

Beauty the elaboration of its art the gore of essence goes to unforseeable beyond

Beauty it holds to no formulae yet runs rampant in its see

Beauty propelling the continuation of biology

Beauty lividious amaze

Beauty of unarithmetic enormity


Beauty of throat laughter carriage...it absolutely delights

Beauty running with total agreement with all that is of its expression

Beauty its influential excitiveness of all that feasts on the pleasantry

Beauty hosting all that is of The L'amour

Beauty from this watch to that watch absolute ravishment

Beauty it never tires yet when preserved lasts always and ever
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Beauty holds all of pleasures gaze

Beauty you view it high view it low whatever point of eye it holds fascinate

Beauty what great manifest
Beauty beneficiary hand-out to the imagination
Beauty triggeration of sedation
Beauty taking life in differantiated perceptions
Beauty disturbing reasoning
Beauty existing in the finery and meticulousness of extreme polish
Beauty satiates the aesthetical neccessity to behold balms for our souls
Beauty unarguable reaction claim
Beauty its features are of no vocabulary
Beauty and its take on appreciation "Don't speak it...Feel it"
Beauty of free display given to mortals from Hands Glorious.
The decadence of unpayable soothes

Beauty with known and unknown elements
Beauty with Transportive elementation

Beauty holding silence with heard effects
Beauty of..."Oh God"
Beauty in fully mouthed speech

Beauty in entanglement of intake
Beauty its take.An overpowering allure
Beauty of the most intricate and unspecified
Beauty in its most descriptive mean


Beauty of high order

Beauty of high caption...Spew of Creators known Grandest
Beauty of first face rememberance...Features of unforgetableness

Beauty of natures undefinable elements
Beauty which revokes repudiates absolutely rejects desecration callousy harm and even insensitivity
Creations puzzle of aesthetics
Beauty of effect and no-ignore...Cannot be dismissed, must be taken in, endless glares and stares take inevitability

Beauty of eye delight...Pleasure in heights raging in high soars

Untraceable Genesis and Revelations
Beauty leaving you in question of if God creates and makes such things?

What is He like?

What visage does He hold?

His dripping hands creating the most illustrive of Heaven concieved and earthly articulated artistry

Forms beings and things of unorthodoxed reveals

In His out-pour even the ugly finds roomed beauty


Takes you to places in God where speech has no occupancy in mouth
Takes you to a place of being dumb-founded.
Rationalizing that which cannot be construed!
Trying to figure out that which cannot be wrapped around our mind or imagination


Our highest creations,worded or material. They do not compare

Trying to figure out the Being that is the Creator of Beauty. He being God.

You are left with the conclusion...HE RESERVES HIGHEST LOCATION IN BEAUTY!

Even that texted it lacks its voided in the descriptiveness of beauty, because it does not encapsulate all it is... Rightly, God notions and then materializes Beauty, He is a Person of Beauty.

He holds superlation in all things beautiful. yet He remains a mystery only to be found through Jesus Christ.The first bloom of Beauty. Jesus holds reveal to the beauty that is God in His wholeness, His beauty dominated heartbeat.

Beauty Beauty Beauty...

My words are not enough...They deficient in the description of Beauty
Yet until we see The One Most Beautiful we shall be satisfied to behold that which He has given to show us in part.

BEAUTY THAT IS THERAPEUTIC.

A strong identity.

i need to exhale. I need to find my highest breath.

Need to be me and find me in the things that should be.

I need to live being me and still do things that are.

'Born free yet everywhere be in chains' a teacher of mine said that!

That cannot be me.

Authority is not an enemy.
Rules are there for a reason
Laws cannot be broken...Humanity would collapse
The truth is The Truth.

Find myself in the living out of all so that what i do is not a chore yet an unexplainable delight of continusm.

When what i must do find itself in my want to do...Is that not the highest expression of humanity.

Not human doing but human being!

Everything must find itself in my breathing and exhale...There must be no contrivation.

So the discovering of who is me goes forth yet it must be said it rests within the Head Guardship of The Eternal Who are you?

The Creator we know yet we know nothing at all.
He is the Ancient.The contradicted.Holy.Who are you?
Forever explained yet coming to no exhaust of capture
We grab on to the Word, yes! Absolutely! and we grab on it firmly. It Guides!

Yet expression must be found squirely on Him and what He reveals and says.

I will not do...The must does the ought to does The obligations that have their origions in God knows where and "oh" this is head...The dictatorship of money...I WILL NOT BOW DOWN!

Jesus and my expression in Him and His allow is my sole and undisturbable pursuit!

Said, it... yet found firstness in it.

Love

Contemplative searches
Investigative glares
With a foundational purpose
in order to find that which is sought


Just read a statement lately
"Love or something like it"

The whole ordeal of love and things which constitute of it.

How are such things recognized?
How are they identified?

How are conclusions made that this is the thing which is love.
How do you say "Yes,i believe this is love"
What is the essential factor, That overrides emotions and lays bare the thing that is love?!

Contemplate Investigate Unearth if you must!
Yet this must be known

Love cannot be known unless it has been shown.
How do you know a Monet unless you have seen it and when someone points it out you then recognize what you have seen before.
How will you know a Galliano piece unless you know his aesthetic?!

So in conclusion, yes most of the people on earth are eluded by love
Yet in order to find out what love is. Who love is should be the first order
of search.

Its coming to the knowledge of the One who is Wholeness in being and practice...That being Christ Jesus. Perfect in His being Love. Perfect in His practice of love.

Starting there you will know the things elaborating, flourishing and being real in lOve.

The wind blowing in my face.

Even your slightest adds to my satisfaction and gives calm delight.

Oh Jesus.

The question of Homosexuality!

How can i gain everything?

Yet lose nothing?

How can i keep "me" and yet have that which "i" do not gravitate towards?

The question is when does normality become so unavoidable and in-fixed that it requires me to align myself with it and lose that which "i" am

Because "i" does not accommodate that which my deepest parts longs for, that which nature rhymes with...that which is ((i can't bear it)) Normal.

How is it made to work...when nature itself is in opposition...opposing that which "i" am so that i become that which i should!

How do i gain everything and lose nothing?

My current state.

me: i am in convulsion my mind is in permanent misqoutes and i just can't seem to get things the right way up i need help i need light ...i need Jesus.
and its like he is far from me yet i knoiw he is near...i am in serious need of Jesus
Sent at 11:42 AM on Friday


me: sorry for the flood gates
anyway how are you

me: yeah God need him like i need air He is my absolute everything and i can't function without him
i need Jesus
Sent at 11:45 AM on Friday

me: yah....welll how the hell are yah
Sent at 11:48 AM on Friday
me: well since you can't help i have to take it to blogger so someone who has insight might comment
Sent at 11:49 AM on Friday


me: well since you can't help i have to take it to blogger so someone who has insight might comment

me: love!
Sent at 11:51 AM on Friday

Jesus i need you Jesus i need you....Somebody call Jesus for me....Jesus i need you.

My Jesus i need you.

Jesus of Peter
Jesus of John
Jesus of the blind men needing sight, Come to me.
Comforter of the ostricized
One who gives lives direction....Jesus i need you. Come to me!

Covered in colour of no sight
Yet when light bursts through shelter it does become

Things of beauty are in occupance in a shelter of dark freight
Yet such things are not revealed until lights exposes them

Dark yet has an accomodative element giving a suggestion that one can live there
Yet with light accomodaton becomes home,for light exposes what is and is not
Darkness covers things so no navigation is of permit

Windows covered in bars yet letting light shine through
a shine through which holds a seat by the barred window
Is that not what darkness does. Holds an appeal that appeases.
Yet light would show you the door of exit and lays a choice before you whether to stay or to go

Draped curtains
Cushions in sided posture
A dangled scarf by the window barred
Blue artifice flowers relected on the scarf, giving glimmer (i can't finish)
And then the chair.

I want to sob... i want to cry... i want to let out tears of unmatched outpour!

Biggest mistake...or...Greatest exploit! Ever done by a son of man!!!

This is your property

I am exclusively yours

I belong to you independently

Solely your possession

The war for my affections continues!

Results of heavy breathes, Deep Lung drawn air of ....(((Just came after worship)))

Captured by your beauty
Enthralled by the hands of your work
Taken aback by all that you have made
All that you designed
Its so precise so crafted so manufactured
So intricately put together

That it is a cause for a smile

Its a cause for great pleasure

The whole earth teeming with Your works
One end to the other the display of your works glorious

Oh, its an elaborate show a complete pageantry of your manifold Artisticness God the great Artist.

Listen to them Hearken them Pay attention

All cry Wise
All cry Most Holy
All cry beyond
All cry indescribable

And to catch a glimpse of your creation in the womb! Oh Takes my breathe away
All that could come out was you are Divine

And then hearing the life you formed in its infancy
All i could cry was "YOU ARE BEYOND AND YOU SURPASS"

you God

The order of entrace.

You are the saluted One And the salutation given is praise.

Homosexuality.

If it is so bad, why do i want it so badly
If it is not to be a direct for my existence why does it hold such appeal
If it it so unfit why do i drip with saliva for it
if it is so unseemly why does my mental convulse at its sight

If it is a thing of evil and ungodliness why then is it that it finds expression even though in its pinnacle of prevalence i subdue it...

If its so wicked why can't i silent the voices that cry out for it.
Voices within! ((Should i be devastated?))

If its not to be done, why does it loom and find itself in my space
Wherever_____________However__________In any given time__________
It seems to find its way to. Confront . Suggest itself . Reminding me in thought and feel of ITS availability!.

Yet this i hold. In dependence of my response it either takes precedent or it curbed.

Yet the thing that it holds is that i desire it. Lets be frank...I want to do it.

So then, Question posed ! How oh how, do i say NO to something i want to do.

Its enticing and desirable it has the possibility to be life dominating.
Dominant of life ((lol)) you can't play around with such things...yet even though that ethos is held its a WAR!

Yet how do i say NO to what i want?!

The word that constitutes the entirety of life. This is the unavoidable = CHOICE.
And as much as i would love to say " I decide to say NO!"

Time + Influence + Voices Listened to + Adherence * CHOICE = My turn-out.

And this is the Leviathan. The sway of things. The Preeminent!

Grace from The Lord Jesus Christ will be the fore determinance of where things end and where i myself will end.

Even though i am weak, Mark this..This i say with confidence of absoluteness...
I WILL BE FOUND IN CHRIST.

Even when i am standing or have fallen.

His Name i WILL spew out of my mouth!

There is irregularity to all things pertaining to it.

I laugh in your face

With my mouth wide open holding your ageless face and showing you the deep part of my mouth laughing at whatever has us in spasms at the moment....Delighting in You and Laughing in your face with all i am falling with no reserves at the pleasure of you.

Oh Jesus you have me. You have me. You have me. You have me. You have me and you have me good.

My most Loyal.

You can't stand to see sadness. You cannot.

The most beautiful Name to be uttered by the sons of man

Jesus Christ

The thing with No.

The thing with No is that you have to keep saying no and temptation continual is not easily navigatable and saying yes is easier yet you can't be in a pleasant habitation within yourself and with yourself

Saying Yes gratifies.

Saying No is what makes me live

This is where the separation occurs between man of steel and man of mud

Its hard to swallow yet this is the determining factor.

Raise me up.

Sit me up with a kiss

Take me in your grasp and breathe air into me

Exchange the air of your mouth and enable me to breathe by breathing your breathe in me.

I don't want to come up for air resuscitate me with your breathe

Let my breathing be dependent upon yours

Swallow me in your kiss

Raise me up with the delight of your kiss

When in pilgrimage in your lips...there is no reality you are all.

Yet lift me up for a meet with reality.

Kiss me Jew

And then release me to reality

Then my reality will be distracted by the presence of the intimacy we share

A kiss of momentum and high brewing

Raise me to Life. Raise me to Choice.

Raise me to everyday happening with a kiss that enables me to face the reality of living.

Raise me up Raise me Raise me up Raise me up

Jesus Christ. Oh.