Homosexuality.

If it is so bad, why do i want it so badly
If it is not to be a direct for my existence why does it hold such appeal
If it it so unfit why do i drip with saliva for it
if it is so unseemly why does my mental convulse at its sight

If it is a thing of evil and ungodliness why then is it that it finds expression even though in its pinnacle of prevalence i subdue it...

If its so wicked why can't i silent the voices that cry out for it.
Voices within! ((Should i be devastated?))

If its not to be done, why does it loom and find itself in my space
Wherever_____________However__________In any given time__________
It seems to find its way to. Confront . Suggest itself . Reminding me in thought and feel of ITS availability!.

Yet this i hold. In dependence of my response it either takes precedent or it curbed.

Yet the thing that it holds is that i desire it. Lets be frank...I want to do it.

So then, Question posed ! How oh how, do i say NO to something i want to do.

Its enticing and desirable it has the possibility to be life dominating.
Dominant of life ((lol)) you can't play around with such things...yet even though that ethos is held its a WAR!

Yet how do i say NO to what i want?!

The word that constitutes the entirety of life. This is the unavoidable = CHOICE.
And as much as i would love to say " I decide to say NO!"

Time + Influence + Voices Listened to + Adherence * CHOICE = My turn-out.

And this is the Leviathan. The sway of things. The Preeminent!

Grace from The Lord Jesus Christ will be the fore determinance of where things end and where i myself will end.

Even though i am weak, Mark this..This i say with confidence of absoluteness...
I WILL BE FOUND IN CHRIST.

Even when i am standing or have fallen.

His Name i WILL spew out of my mouth!